True Peace

The elections are and have been over. Despite being half a week I still get my friends posts about “Boo Trump” or “Boo Hillary Supporters.” (Honestly, guys, I don’t care that Trump won. I wouldn’t care if Hillary did. Either way I spent a good 5 minutes of the 9th saying ‘oh boo but I saw it coming.’)

Instead I’m a bit…well annoyed at the fact that people overwhelmingly voted for Prop 206. (If you live out of state it is basically Arizona’s minimum wage hike to, I believe, $12 starting 2020 but next year it will go up to $10.) Being an employee at a family owned business I spent a good few days brooding over this. All I could think of was how I worked for a family owned business. Will they even afford to keep their staff? What will happen? Will my hours get cut and if so how much? Can we even afford to stay open? What if we can’t? …When people voted for this they didn’t take into account all of the places that require a lower minimum wage or a major price hike.

I tried to pry the answers out of the owner’s son, who was beyond useless in this area, and instead got the answers out of my manager yesterday. He voiced out the fears I’ve had all week and I won’t know any actual legitimate facts until possibly between after thanksgiving and after new years.

I want to be mad about it still but last night as my manager was telling me all of these things all I could feel was…oddly enough, peace. I thought, ‘Why do I feel peace? Is there something wrong with me? Am I just not taking this seriously?’ The last time, though, we were afraid of possibly losing money was when the Fry’s next door to us nearly put in a Starbucks. It never happened and I thought maybe we can get through this too. It might be a different situation but maybe we can still get through this too.

That night I prayed that for as long as we were on mission that we stay open.

Isn’t it weird that within this week alone I go from complaining to worry to being okay with the outcome in the future?

In Psalms its says, “Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him.” (Psalms 62:1 NIV) “Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him for God is our refuge.” (Psalms 62: 5-8 NIV)

When you truly trust everything to God your soul will find peace and the peace will be like nothing you’ve experienced before.

Sometimes when I check my ASL (American Sign Language) class grade I get so anxious and I feel so stupid for making dumb mistakes on quizzes and tests. Although an 85% is still great I still can’t believe over whatever mistake I made. It’s the only class I’ve really felt compelled to get an A in. No clue why, I just do. Maybe because I have a hard time accepting I actually need to try a little harder or when I do I don’t see the results I should be seeing. Or, the more likely, is that because I felt God call me to learn I don’t want to disappoint Him by getting a lower grade than nearly perfect. Whatever the reason I still don’t find peace with this grade. This is something I still need to take to God and say, “Okay, it’s your turn.”

This seems very…oh what’s that word…very mundane. It’s very small. How can I give Him my entire future when I can’t even give Him this small thing? How can I hand over my country to Him when I can’t even give Him this class that is going on my record as an “elective”? It’s silly to think I can ever disappoint God with something like my grades! It’s silly to think this but it’s very easy for me because I’ve been doing it my whole life.

“Here, God, these are my cats health. Remember, I can’t really afford vet bills…and the cat has peed on my furniture again. Why? Why are you doing that?” “Here, God, here’s my health. Remember, I can’t afford health insurance.” “Here, God, here’s my application to Crossroads. I really, really, really, really want to work here. Can you make that happen?” “Here, God, I feel lonely and depressed and I need to know why. Why am I so different from everybody else?”

With everything I’ve given God I’ve been blessed in some way. (Well, okay if God can make the cats stop peeing on everything, that’d be great!) I’ve gotten my answers. So, Saturday night I said, “Here, God, this is where I work. This is what I need from you,” and as a result I’ve found peace with what may happen. The future doesn’t scare me. Wherever I need to be God will put people in my life to help me along the way, I just need to follow the voice that calls and God will do the rest.

Doesn’t it seem silly that we don’t put everything in front of the God that moves mountains, commands angels, and flooded the earth? This is the God that sent a piece of Him, called him his Son, to sacrifice and cleanse us of the taint of sin so that we can be with Him in His presence.

Things may not go your way. Nobody ever said it would be magically easier when you put something at God’s feet but don’t take it away either. Keep it there. See what God does with any unfortunate events that may come your way.

“The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them.” Psalm 145:18-19 NIV

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